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Raped Body...
08:02
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Her nails digging into my shoulders
Her tongue sliding down my throat
Bare flesh against bare flesh
Two becoming one, unwillingly
Limp, weak and frail; can't break free
Can't cry, can't scream, silenced, wondering how it got this far
I should have never fallen for her trap, so obvious, so obvious
The shock rushes through, jaw clenched, muscles tense
Shivering and scared, longing for an end other than...
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...Raped Mind
08:18
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...The dysphoria of release, it soon arrives,
blinding my senses,
filling her with the disease of life
The fluid holds the seeds of endless sorrow
...No, no, no!
Please let this be a nightmare!!!
Shame is all that remains
The memory shall never leave: traumatic, traumatic, traumatic!
Trust shatters, hope is lost, and suicide clouds the mind
Hide thee from my sight, never to return!
You raped me! You raped me!
I'm ruined, inhuman, diseased, unclean!
...Rape! Rape! Rape!!!
Let me die! Let me die!!!
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(...Let me die!)
A body broken from the horror it's been through
I stare at my reflection, horrified of what I've become
A reflection now ruined, unrecognizable, disgusting
You are etched into my mind,
forever haunting me with what you've done
Sleep, a long-lost remedy, unfamiliar to my senses
How can I think, when all I can think of is you?
Get out of my head!
Get off me!
Get off!!!
So helpless, so betrayed
How can I ever learn to trust again?
You've destroyed me, never to be repaired
The shattered fragments;
my image disfigured, distorted...
My innocence, my purity, is gone!
You ruined me!!!
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Genophobic Lamentation
12:36
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(You ruined me...)
Who am I?
I am not myself...
Staring into the mirror before me
The broken shell of a past self stares back,
recalling the time my life was irreversibly destroyed...
Submitting to your perverted charm, losing myself in your eyes
They unveiled my darkest secrets and shallow desires
Now your seductive gaze lacerates my soul...
Chills run down my spine as your fingers run down my body
Your mouth wraps around
Receptors are smothered by pain disguised as ecstasy
Paralyzed by this sensation that none dare to speak of
Subjected to horrors only seen behind closed doors
Genophobic thoughts begin to take over
Tears of dread and confusion begin to stream down my face and onto her pillow
as I refuse to believe what is happening...
I refuse to believe...
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Sedate me, pin me down
Suck me dry, force me inside
Fill me with childlike fear
as you fill yourself...
...and leave me wondering why!
Why did I let this happen?
Why did I allow your lips to mistreat me?
Why did I fall for your filthy lies?
What made me think everything would be okay?
Tightly closed eyes open again to reveal your true self:
Lustful, deceitful, deriving enjoyment from stealing the purity of the innocents,
gratifying the impulses of your twisted subconscious
Not even eternal slumber can kill these torturous flashbacks
The agony is forever burned into the darkest reaches of my mind
and will continue to follow me after inevitable suicide
I can never forget...
I will never forget...
...Never!
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Forever haunted by failure,
I, the mirror won't let them be,
Contribution to their abuse, my only use.
A once trusted faith, inverted,
Defiled, beaten, molested,
A deep fear to whisper in your ear,
It will follow you in your sleep,
You will feel it inside your dreams,
Transformed underworld, tranquil without light,
Blessed are the sins of the night (which father do you feel?),
A dark red shadow of hate remains,
(Any arrogance begins to fade, for trauma will always linger, another weakling has been made)
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Internal Darkness New Jersey
Depressive Black Metal from New Jersey, USA. Formed in 2016 as Fading Existence by Irritum under the pseudonym Krait.
Rebranded in September 2017.
For fans of Intig, Hypothermia, Xasthur, Silencer, and Psychonaut 4.
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